Crying While Running To The Masjid

Wednesday, 9th September 2009 / 19 Romadhon 1430

4:25 AM – I woke up. Realizing that I would be late for Qiaamullail at the Masjid, I only ate three dates (kurma) and drank a plenty of MARIGOLD Hi-Calcium Fresh Soya Milk for my sahur. I threw my tapau which was supposed to be my sahur for that time in the bakul sampah since I wanted to perform Qiaam at the Masjid. After that, I get prepared very quickly for getting ready to Qiaam at Masjid Universiti, UBD.

OTW to Masjid – I was running (usually, I walk to the masjid) since my niat was to perform eight roka’aat of Solat Tahajjud lillaahi ta’aala. For unknown reasons, when I was running on the way to the Masjid, I cried. At that time, I remembered a hadis where it said something like siapa yang tahu fadhilat solat Subuh, pasti tani mendatanginya walaupuin bila keadaan tani merangkak (by crawling! Just imagine how BIG the fadhilat is to the extent that urang yang crawling pun sanggup solat ani bah). At that time, I also said in my heart, “Kenapaaa tah ku lari-lari cani” Running from the hostel to masjid before azan Subuh, haha...

And alhamdulillah, I managed to perform four roka’aat of solat Tahajjud at the Masjid before the azan Subuh. Well, four is bigger than zero. :)

Hmmm… It was something hard for me to explain why I was crying while running to the Masjid tadi atu. Slalunya inda bahh. Something like mixed feelings ada jua. For sure, I was finding rohmat, redho and keampunan from Allah di pagi 19 Romadhon. I could perform my Qiaam and solat Subuh at the hostel though. And I chose at the Masjid. Bulan puasa lagi kan, and Ramadhan tinggal dalam 10 hari lagi. Why not take the chances as if I am going to die soon.

But, most importantly, I really don’t want to miss solat Subuh berjamaa’ah di masjid for the third time in this blessing month of Ramadhan 1430 Hijrah. I already missed two though huhu...

And lastly, du’aakan that I would be like this and istiqomah selama-lamanya... aamiin...

Telah berkata pendeta Yahudi: "Tidak akan aku gentar pada ummat Islam selagi mana jumlah Muslims yang datang menunaikan solat Subuh berjamaa'ah tidak menyamai jumlah Muslims yang menunaikan solat Jum'at"